Dead shit !

All the world is a lie, Where all the people aren't caring about others.....Dizzling vibes caught by sighes....

Alone I remain, seeking a little solace,To feel wanted, a life of purpose without haste,In the end I suppose I'll just face it, a heart of sadness and an uncertain fate......

Nobody can feel my silence, my tears, my heart and anything.....There's only me for my self.....Alone I sit, my heart so bereft,No shoulder to lean on, no arms for embrace,My sad heart feels its alone, no one here to take its place.

Loneliness overwhelms me, a pain I can't ignore,My eyes plead for answers, searching an open door,No answers come, I'm all alone, no one I can explore.

The sadness I feel, it can't be denied,A heavy heart I may have, but I'll never feel entitled,My life still has value, despite how much I've sighed.....A heart so sensitive, so strong and so freeSadness so pervasive, no matter what I see....The beauty of the vista, the trees, the sea Nothing stirs me, I'm lost, unable to feel glee....

The birds that call so sweet and clear.The sacred cheerfulness I cannot hear..The glorious sun, blazing in the sky, Gives me no pleasure, no matter how hard I try...

A passionate fire burning deep within, Yet my sorrow persists, no tiny joy or grin..The road ahead is long and hard to travel...But I must keep going, with courage I must grapple....

For I know one day, my inner light will shine,The beauty in life I'll start to unwind...I'll come out from the darkness and soar away....With the beauty of the environment, I will be happy one day. But when it is ? When ? Whennnn ? I shouutttttt !!!!!.......

There isn't a dayyy like that.....

When the whole world needs me Im there even without thinking about myself.... I was there to help sooooo many people without any conditions. I dedicated my heart, my soul, my time and soooo many things for them. I shared my whole life with them and I have given my everything to the world.....

But,

the tragedy is that when I finally wanted someone's help or someone's shoulder , I had no one......There is nooooo one to listen me ! 

Im living in a dumb, deaf, and blind world, where nobody can see me , listen me or feel me.... All the world is a dead shit !!........

Thank you god, for treating me like this.....I'm too good for this dead shit world.....Dear god, please take away my heart from me, Please cut my neck and kill me ! It's better than living like this in such a fake world.....Or please take me to another planet where there is nooo human....

Im fedup ! 

All the people are busy busy busyyyyy busyyyyy...They are acting like they are the most busiest people in the whole world.....when I need someone all the world is busy......!!!!

Dear god please kill me ! Or take my heart awayyyyy from me !...

I know people start understanding my value when I stop making efforts for them....But sometimes they don't understand that even.....So living in a dead world like this is the worst thingggg I ever had in my life....

Dead shit ! 😐😭😫 

-Se.Ka....-  23 /Aug/ 06